Hatred Within

The hatred is bubbling within
Hatred toward everyone who hurt me, 
they never knew they did this to me.
They will never understand the pain, 
the hate, the malice I feel.

She doesn't understand what she has done.
She doesn't know what she is doing to me.
The pain she is causing in my life.
The way she is destroying the only family I have.

The fights,
The screaming,
The words that come from me,
The things I say to her,
The words that exit my mouth.

I never forget the hold she has, 
her hold, the hold that is so tight.
I want to rebel, to break, 
from the chains that hold me down within.

Someone help me to see, 
the light in my despair.
The light that I need, 
the light I want to see, 
the light that I think, 
will never come.

[A/N] Written after having a fight with my mom. Ironically I had just read some poems about love and roses right before I started my poem.

Written: January 2009